Awakening

Social reality is a conveyor belt that distracts from what matters. You’re not in hell – you’re in “distraction mode,” where the spiritual drowns in grocery runs and TV shows. Life is set up so you forget who you really are.

You’re like someone locked inside another person – like a skittish but kind horse. Your job is to teach it to stay calm and relaxed, body and mind. Because the body, the mind, and you are one and the same.

Awakening is the end of who you thought you were. Goals, relationships, career, even your perception of time – everything changes. You find yourself in between: already awake from the old, but not yet arrived at the new.

“I used to worry that I hadn’t achieved enough. Now I don’t care if I achieve anything at all. And everything was fine!”

Carl Jung considered this stage part of individuation – the process of becoming a whole, true self. It’s not about motivation; it’s about the emergence of an inner compass. You stop chasing meaning – you recognize it when it comes. Decisions are no longer made by asking “what should I do?” but “what is calling me?” and “where is life leading?”

This isn’t giving up ambition – it’s transforming it. The world is a reflection of your relationship to it. Change the relationship, and you change the very world you live in.

The old personality dissolves, and through it an archetype begins to emerge: not just Kolya-the-programmer, but the Hero, the Magician, the Hermit, or the Warrior. You’re not playing a role – the role is playing you.

First you’re a person with a body and a story. Then – an archetype in human form. And then – nobody. Only then are you truly free.